Routine,oh,routine!

First day back to qi gong,freaking tiring after more than a month of skipping it due to my wound (afraid of internal injuries).I sprained my ankle's vein last two days,while sleeping.I have no idea how did it happen,really!And now i'm walking terkedek-kedek,everywhere.People looking at me one kind.Great!Lucky day i had,Pastor asked me to give my testimonies on how God brought me through all these years during our church 8th Anniversary.Great!Testimonies?Darn,i'm not going to shed any tears again on the stage in front of everybody at the beginning of my speech,humiliating!What am i going to say this time around?"Thank god for my friends and family,thank god for my health,thank god for my good doctors,good nurses,good anaesthetist and you and you and you(pointing at them).Amen,God bless you all.Thank you".Huey Tyng,one of my gal friends,who is also already being a mom at my age,is running her own business selling bags with a real store in Petaling Street,next to her mom's stall.I'm really happy for her.I really am.I do wish her all the best.Where am i?Where's my business?Work your ass off...PohMei!

Testing my Patience!

I need help..Photoshop really pissing me off..Losh,you going to read this.I need your help,please...Maybe this weekend i'll be coming over.

Back on track!

Over the weekend,went fishing whole day till night and got myself burnt under the sun with no fish was caught but it was all worth while.I know how to fish now,at least and i found out that putting sunblock at night can repel mosquitoes!i didn't apply sunblock when the sun was up but i did at night.sounds..weird!Atiqah sent an sms,and there'll be no french classes for the next 2 weeks.Benedict will on holidays with her kids,guess no excuse to hit the malls tomorrow.I have installed some software to do simple designing stuff.I will try to focus and start on,my next step after my virtual boutique,having my own T-shirt business.Of course will colaborate with my pretty pretty sister,Missy Cheryl,the Boss and i'm THE WORKER,T-shirt designer.No idea how things going to turn out to be but will pray for the best and no hurry,will take things one step at a time.Bad morning i had,mom had bought noodles for me,slowly and gently,i spilled the soup and it was all over the antique dining table.Worst still,i spilled on her bag as well which was on the chair.Upset,she was.Banging doors and whatsoever.I cleaned up the chair nad the bag,and realised the liquid got into the slid under the heavy piece of glass.Not strong enough to carry it,so i took papers,slipped it in and let it get soaked.My time has come,the paper got stuck underneath it,soaked!*&^%*#@#%&* if she saw it,i'm so screwed.Scratched her table a lil' bit and finally got it out.Pheww,lucky me!

Shaved-sheep!

Sparkie had its hair done today..

To fish or not!

My first time being wasted all my effort just to go fishing when i found out i was just "tagging along" rather than being part of the plan just because somebody and he said something that really,really turned me off.Have you ever been on a trip where you were referred as just "you" rather than "we" as in you with your friends who were involved?The whole plan now is changed in order to keep it going.The other friend has now changed his mind from "refused to go" to "to go" and i feel superbly bad if i ever "misbehave" during the trip as he actually complained about me and even feel worse after me knowing that he refused to go initially was because i'm going and now he changed his mind.i'm going to see him.it's hard to hang out with friend's friends.Now i know why he is still single!

My Day...

Weekend was great!and so was yesterday and today..I earned a hundred bucks by typing some stuff for my sister's friend and today,is Topshop members' Day@Midvalley.I woke up kinda late today,I just couldn't get up as i kept dreaming till my mom screamed at me.Okay fine,i finally had my ass off the bed when i thought of the work given which i had to mail it back to him by tonight.Then Polly called me up bout the sale.I put a stop on my work,got ready and head to the mall.The sales was so-so and was packed with females.Don't you all need to work,ladies?Browsing through the clothes,and i got myself four tops to try it on and owned two of them.Took my broke ass home with mom and just finished up my work and i'm going to watch Sex and The City now...

So-called healthy!

Finally managed to got up early today and...JOG!!!!wee....walked me dogs around the neighbourhood.Bathed them.

Tripple Combo!

Good news..eh hem..to me of course.Went to Pavilion again yesterday with Cheryl,my pretty pretty eldest sister,to use up my Vincci RM10 voucher,go to Sassa to get fancy eye liner,and Watson.While we were in one of the shops,my phone rang and i got a sms from my PY,poh yueh,my 3rd sis,that went like this " you can proceed with your korea plan"...Whooo hoooo....!!!!She is going to sponsor my trip to Korea end of the year.How can I not be contented with my lifE!God is really good to me,having such nice ppl around me.I'm so blessed!Another blessing thing that happened right after that.Forever 21 is having good bargain especially for winter clothings,well now is spring,of course they're trying to get rid of old stocks.So i texted py if i get extra allowance for buying jackets.With all my efforts,she agreed to get me ONE as long as i really need it and it will NOT land in my virtual boutique.Yay!!and cheryl bought me a sweater.Tripple Combo!Guess we need to go to the mall again,we didn't manage to go to the other 2 shops.That was the reason why we were out yesterday,the first time we wanted to get stuff,we were carried away by other shops till we have to rush to pick Aiken up.Third time around,one word,FOCUS!we gotta be very focus,head straight to the "must" shops and give no reason for another trip to the Land of Evil.Opps,i forgotten another one important shop,J.CO Donuts.I had lunch at Sakae Sushi,it's been upgraded in terms of food variations and no more using mouse,touch screen now,even the price probably due to the location.It really made me wonder what's with Sakae Sushi and air conditioner problem?Always break down.First 2 times was in the Curve then now in Pavilion same problem occured.The best outlet is still in Bangsar,i guess.

Doctor,doctor,doctor!

Yesterday i had 2 appointments with my doc and another doc cum scientist.The first trip to the doc cum scientist at PJ was feeling a bit anxious,as i didn't know what to expect what she has to say regarding my condition.Apparently,this Dr.Jong,a female,she's a genius and got her degree at the age of 15 and she knew what she wanted to be when she was 5.Alright,seen her,as pretty as she is,she doesn't look like 38 at all.She does R&D based in Switzerland herself n come out with number of companies around the world,one of them is Frontier in PJ(the one i went yesterday.)And so she was going through my file,and she couldn't give me an optimistic view towards the recurrence of the tumor.Since my family history,especially on my dad side,has quite a number of relatives who actually died of cancer,incuding breast,colon,rectum and so and so..Dr.Jong said it could be in my gene and having said that,my recurrence chances are high,50% and above.Sad,isn't it?
So to determine whether it's in my gene,i need to run a DNA test,which basically will trace whatever diseases you inherit or is in our body.Not to be forgotten,a scan is a must too.At the same time,Dr. recommend me to take supplement drinks high in anti-oxidant to curb the cells.After the trip,it seemed that i have learned that the food intake everyday doesn't really supply all the nutritients we need as nutritients are destroyed by the acid along the way even before it reached our disgestive system.And when your body do not absorb the amount of nutrients it needed,it'll tend to pull down our immune system and that is when we'll be attacked by the diseases.Make sense to me~!Too much of radiation (from pc and phone),taking oral drugs will cause burden to organs to detoxified.When toxic are not expelled,and it keep accumulating in our body,is also another reason to be sick.So,since i had a tumor=over too much toxic not expelled,i have to do detox for my lower abdominal organs which includes uterus,intestines,kidney and blood.each organ at a time and approximately will take a week with 2 days of rest.So much have to do...

Second trip was to UH,to see my beloved surgeon,Dr.Collin.Well the pathology result was out.Mitotic rate has dropped,3/10,good.Can argue not to take Glivec,good,but have to do a scan after 4 months then whether to take Glivec will be decided by then again.Doc said i can get back to studies,good.He knows what i've been doing for the past 2 years at home,and he claimed to know my behaviour and attitude as well,which is spoiled,and relying too much on my sis and said to my sister "oH,it doesn't matter,time will mature her"(with his heavy english accent).I was like...excuse me?i've been taking this easy,doesn't mean i'm immatured.i don't seem as anxious and worried as my sis does and ask all sort of questions,doesn't mean i'm immatured.What de fork!So much of accusation~!

Realise

It really scare the shit out of me that today is Friday.Yea,i know,Friday(the day ppl love the most,as the day after this is weekend).The last time i posted my "day" was back on Tuesday,that shows how freaking stable my life is.Looking at the brighter side,that's a good sign,as nothing bad happen to me(touch wood!),but,if you look at other way round,my life is freaking bored!God,please grant me a job,ok!with good pay,ok!Oh..my pay cheque came in last night,which i worked for MYC in last year December.Celcom somemore.Speechless..

I just realise how things would take place when i'm less temperamental.so much better.Less resentments,barriers and misunderstandings.The way you put your words,tone of voice,expecting someone to understand how you feel=explaining over and over again in a "SUPER PATIENT" mode.It's not easy to maintain a relationship,really,moreover we're two different human from different planet,different thinking,different emotions,everything is just so different.We both have our very own perspective and thinking in everything we did or do like he thinks it's ok to him but not ok to me,or when i do something,i think it's ok to me but it's not ok to him.As complicated at it may seem,maybe i should make a point to ponder a while how would he feels if i was in his shoes and vice versa.I pray that GOD will grant me HIS understanding,wisdom,and patience(i need a lot of them.higher dosage,pls!thanks!)
I know life is more than sitting at home,cring your eyes out after a relationship,and you can't seem to get your head in everything you do.Because I've been there,done that!years ago..And now,my mom taught me better than that!

p/s:I dont regret of the decisions I've made,but I wished someone would have guided me.

I want to get a tattoo,somewhere not near my boobies or cha cha,to remind me of my past + present + future.

Thursday..

Here comes,Thursday,another day at home...

Korean session at Midvalley

This was the second my mom actually accompanied me to the mall.She didn't want to walk for too long,so she tagged along so that she could bring me home after few(2-3) hours.But today it was the first time my mom actually joined me n my friend,Jiny for shopping and lunch.Not too bad..She bought all of us a pair of shoes including for herself.Jiny going back to Korea end of the year,for about 2-3 weeks,she invited me to tag along.i mean seriously,who would mind,when accomodation is provided,i just need to get my own air ticket n shopping bucks.N my mom said ok..alright..let's see if this gonna happen..mom's words..sometimes...speechless..

*everytime i scroll down i saw that tumor pics,i feel like throwing up!

Tarbush

Tarbush..the food...speechless..!a bit suckie though,but the gathering was good.Meeting up with friends from SAB,FarahW,AidaB,Losh,SharminiK.
(i'm waiting for the photos form AidaB)

After dropping Losh back home,i ran over a rat,ewww,in front of the temple.Oh my..poor that lil' rat!eh,no,poor my car!

Vitamin M

I think that i'm lucky that my family still can support me,financially.it's not easy being sick when you are already emotionally defeated,even worse,financial crisis is no way it will not stand in your way.Medical fees ain't cheap,medication,consultation fees,scans,follow-up treatments.All comes down to one thing:MONEY!

Let me a simple personal calculation.This is what my family have spent on or could've spent on..
1)Scans(every 3 months)-RM 800 to RM1000+,depending on which area of body.abdomen,pelvis,chest.
2)Consultation fees(monthly)-on average RM60-RM 150,oncologist and surgeon.
3)Medication(monthly)-RM8000 of Glivec 400mg
4)Miscellanous Test,blood test,etc.(monthy)-RM 30
5)Operation-RM 9500
6)Qi Gong classes(monthy)-RM450
7)Organic Food-not cheap

These are the basic things that takes up a lot from my family savings.Like i said,i think i'm really lucky,my medication is supported by MAX Foundation which supply this particular drugs to GIST patients based on their household income.The last 2 items may not be neccessary,but it's my family decision.i do not need to go for chemotherapy or radiotherapy,which costs a fortune!Nowadays diseases are not one-time-treatment and cure it all.It's an on-going process.Like my case,it's LIFE LONG!

Imagine if a person is diagnosed with critical illness one day(it could be YOU,i wouldn't know as we don't know what the future holds),trust me!you will just wish how nice if you're supported by any non-profit organization.so why not before you might need to get help from others,you start helping the other part of community who's already in need of help now.Amount is not a matter,it's the matter of willingness to give.Include this "donation" in your monthy or yearly financial planning.

Donate:
2)Money $$$

Hospis Malaysia
Cancerlink Foundation
MAKNA

p/s: Start donating when you're still healthy and can generate income.Don't wait till you realise it really helps..by that time,you'll too busy taking care of your ownself!

Donate Blood!

Everyday someone depends on blood for life. Blood maybe needed for surgery, for an accident victim, or to help treat patients with leukemia, cancer, heart and liver diseases, and haemophilia. Your contribution could help save a life here.i've been there,i needed blood tranfusion,so i know how it feels like.So please..
Donate:
1)Blood

For any inquiries, you can call: PTi PERUBATAN TRANSFUSIPUSAT PERUBATAN UNIVERSITIMALAYA59100KUALA LUMPUR.TEL :03-7949 2039,2705FAX :03-7949 4639

Meiko

Haha..the other day i was trying to add music to my blog and i found this lil' friend shaking his head off..it's called "meiko" that's my name wey...copy cat !@#$%^&**%$

After surgery.

it's been 2 weeks already since i was discharged.wound is healing,guess i'm getting so much better now.there's a scar though.anyway,life goes on,no bikinis and all..thanks to those who visited me in the hospital,thanks for the support,thanks to my friends,who texted me and called me all the way from uk and melbie..really appreciate that,and all the gifts and beautiful flowers.chocolates n all the forbidden food. :)life getting back to normal..back to qi gong classes..hopefully if i recover fast enough and everything goes smoothly i demand to start back my college by this sept.yesh...i just can't wait to get back what i've been missing...friends,thinking what to wear to college,hanging out,meeting new friends..reading said i'll finish up my studies n will have a successful marriage..marriage?i loved to have one,but past experience have really opened up my thoughts of relationships.just got out from a relationship.so at the moment,i shall just keep that as my secondary priority..(but i wouldn't mind trying if someone ever come along)that is just so me..and i'm going to focus on recovery and college which more or less will determine my job scope n future..honestly,angelina jolie,i kinda like her...got her own career,she's charismatic,hot mama,has kids from all around the world,brad pitt..ok i shall drop that!(there's only one pitt in the world)marriage is the last thing in her mind..how cool is that..she's doing all this charity stuff n keeping it low-profile,salute her..guess i could do that if only i work as hard and be loaded n don't need to worry if i have enough food on the table....
eat good,live healthily-->hot chick in college-->be successful-->angelina jolie-->steal ppl's husband-->live happily ever after

my Surgery

finally..the decision has been made.i had to go for surgery based on the reading my sis got for me from India.(Naadi Astrology).so i went...it was scary..apparently UH Operation theatres do not look like what we normally see on tv..quite a small room like those consultation room only with gigantic lighting..so i was already pushed into the room in my bed,i mean hospital bed,waiting for the staff to get ready with all the equipments..it was so cold.i looked at the clock,it was 5.15pm..then i was pushed again to go under the light n transferred me from my bed to the OT bed,which can only fit my body,not even a space for me to put my arms at the side.there's a nurse attending me,getting me ready with all the stickers attached to wires to check my heart beats n all,alright i don't what is all that called but i think u roughly get what i'm trying to say..there was only my maxi covering my top,the nurse saw my boobs(damn it)..normal procedures before surgery..at the side of the bed,there were arm rests on both side.my arm was strectched n strapped to the side...then the anaesthetist came,complaining why my doc wasn't there yet..bla bla bla...then the last i remembered was "alright,this is oxygen,take a deep breath" n i said "u bluff me,it's GA" n i was knocked out..next thing i know i was back into my room with lots of tubes in me..urine catheder,drips,n one more from my nose in it went..ouch...not easy,baby....